yeah, i blog that much. and this isn’t my only one. but i’m glad i can’t access any of them when i’m at my workstation. i finally showed up at work today. i ran out of excuses not to go because the installed software on my computer lack certain features that i need. and i hoped it would be remedied by using another pc instead.
i was once again reminded that i do not have a job because i deserve one. i wasn’t qualified when i was offered the job and was hired. and i have a long way to go before i should be considered qualified. the learning process robs me of sleep. but when i’m tired and frustrated, i am also humbled. when i admit that i cannot accomplish this on my own, the Lord directs me to where help may be found. the salary is bigger than those of some full-time jobs. but it was never really about the money or i would have done the seeking. opportunity knocked and i answered. it presented a need that someone believed i could meet. it’s a journey into the unknown. and a chance to experience His grace from a new perspective. ^_^